Happy girl because I danced yesterday and today I baked! Hopefully my cheesecake turns out fine! Maybe I’ll make strawberry/cranberry sauce to top it off tomorrow!
Aaaaaand yes my boyfriend is finally coming back! Can’t wait can’t wait can’t wait to see him. Friday nights = cell nights = lots of food = happy me.
Have a blessed weekend everybody! God bless and my happy world is back :)
Been so moody about work on Monday because I honestly didn’t want to do a FULL shift alone under the eyes of my boss but it turns out that Su will be taking the shift with me! So so so glad and relieved thank God. At least there’s someone else to talk to and to help make time pass faster. Praise praise Jesus! :)
Been surfing and watching dance videos quite often because I’m bored at home + weather’s too hot for me to even step out of the house + people I want to spend time with are not around. So inspired by some of the awesome choreographers who make dance seem like an effortless thing. God only knows it isn’t! So eager to take more classes to improve myself and hopefully take part in RH’s Cultural Night since a friend is choreographing! Can’t wait to move this sluggish body more because when I have no work I just sleep at home. Time for swims and runs, IF ONLY the sun stops being so merciless.
Although sometimes I don’t feel like the happiest of girls in the world, I always get reminded that I’m still very much loved. Like me and my dad had a little fight recently and because we are both ultra stubborn we just have this cold war thing until one of us speaks. But today during dinner he slipped me this cup of orange juice that he juiced for me because he knows I love fresh orange juice and I drink it almost every day. Then we continued watching TV in silence hahaha. Furthermore I have a very loving boyfriend who never fails to whatsapp me even when he’s overseas, asking me how my day was and how I’m coping. This time apart is actually helping us prepare for the future, when either one of us has to go away for a long period of time. Also, it helps us rely more on God and I have to constantly remind myself that this is not a two-people affair, but a three-people relationship, with Jesus in the centre. As much as I miss him and I want him with me, I know he’s better off when he’s serving God and as a girlfriend I should be his support and intercede for him whenever I can or whenever the Holy Spirit prompts. I’m actually looking forward to the day when we can both go on a mission trip together to serve the Lord! Gonna pray about it! Besides, we are halfway through! 5 more days till we finally meet. Gonna be an awesome day, this coming Friday.
I pray that God will help me get through this week! Gonna be a long long week but as long as I have God with me I’m good to go. Pray that this week will be full of blessings and surprises as well!
Shall write in my prayer journal for the boy before I head off to bed.
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Freakishly early in the morning (for me) and yet I’m wide awake tapping away on a smartphone. It’s been a while since I last got roused awake by thoughts so loud, accompanied by the continuous whirring of my head to find answers I know I can never fully form.
I saw this coming, I know myself only too well. I don’t like being tied down, physically or emotionally. Time and time again my weariness proved myself correct. I am fully functional as a human being, complete with the ability to feel and love but I am self-centred enough to want to do it my own way, in my own time and only with the amount I am willing to give.
I still find it hard to be there for the people who are important to me. Am I selfish? Almost everything becomes a chore after a while… Even smiling continuously for no apparent reason other than pleasing someone becomes a tiresome routine. This goes for trying to feel happy when you’re tied down in a place where you know you have no means to break out of. I need my space. I need space to move around, to scream my thoughts out loud, to cry in frustration, to hurl things, to smile to myself and to be myself. It’s getting increasingly unbearable when you know you’re trapped between finding a sense of self and trying to appear to be the perfect person you’re expected to be.
Stuck in a limbo. I’ve always prided myself on being one of the most adaptable creatures around. I blend in seamlessly till that starts getting the better of me. I start getting restless and I want to move on. The infuriating part is that there are things you can never move on from. Your responsibilities. Your life.
I’ve always embraced my freedom, I was never ever afraid. I detest it the most when I’m jailed by things I can never get rid of in this lifetime and just to get by I change myself. How many of my dreams have I compromised, just because I decide to be less selfish than ever?
Stop closing in on me. I need to breathe.
“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose for them” (Romans 8:28, NLT).
Every person goes through disappointments and things that don’t seem to make sense. It’s easy to get discouraged and think, “Why did this happen to me?” “Why did my loved one not make it?” “Why did this person treat me wrong?” “Why did I get laid off?”
We have to understand that even though life is not always fair, God is fair. He promises that He will work all things together for our good. I believe the key word in today’s verse is “together.” In other words, don’t just isolate one part of your life and say, “Well, this is not good.” “It’s not good that I got laid off.” “It’s not good that my child got sick.” “It’s not good that my relationship didn’t work out.” Yes, that’s true, but that’s just one part of your life. God can see the big picture. That disappointment is not the end. Your life doesn’t stop because of one setback. That is simply one piece of your puzzle. There is another piece coming to connect it all because God promises to work all things together for your good!
A Prayer for Today
Heavenly Father, thank You for working all things together for my good. I choose to release any doubt, any frustration, any confusion over my past, and I choose to trust in You. Help me to see the big picture as I keep my mind stayed on You. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.
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Still as happy as ever. Never regretted the day I chose to let this boy into my life and turn it completely upside down. Someone who loves me so much, way beyond I can imagine. This blessing from God is something I am really really really grateful for and never want to let go of.
Happy birthday baby and yay we are another month older together. Let’s continue growing closer in Christ and edifying each other! :)
Had a happy Friday night with cell and some closer church friends as well!
Another week to go through, this time without my boy and my dance/cell girlfriend Alicia. OH WELL.
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